May’s Birthday Giveaway Prizes!

There are only TWO WEEKS left to enter May’s Birthday Giveaway over on my Patreon! One lucky fan is going to win this personally curated, Starborn-inspired prize pack, including:
⭐️ May’s ring (raw cut herkimer diamond set in a gold plated brass band, size 6 or 7)
⭐️ A 100-page “Create Your Own Future: ocean motif lined spiral-bound notebook
⭐️ A purple star charm pen
⭐️ A sting of 20 star microlites
⭐️ Two May and Em stickers (see the WIPs in this post)
Remember: this contest is open internationally and is free to enter!

May’s Birthday Giveaway Contest! (UPDATED)

With The Wind and the Horizon now complete there are a bunch of things I’m working on behind the scenes (details to come!)

But while I get those fun things ready, I wanted to run a contest to celebrate Starborn fans!

May’s birthday is on September 29th, but I’m going to be giving one of YOU the gifts! Throughout the entire month, subscribers to my Patreon will be able to enter to win one specially curated Starborn Series prize pack full of goodies from and inspired by TSATO and TWATH, including a couple of items I hope you’ll be as excited about as I am!

Mays bday giveaway

HOW TO ENTER (UPDATED):

  1. You must be a subscriber of my Patreon to enter. All tiers are eligible but will grant you different numbers of entries: Free = 1 entry | $1-$4 = 3 entries | $5 – $9 = 4 entries | $10+ = 5 entries
  2. Comment on this Patreon post with your guesses and/or hopes for what will happen in the third and final Starborn book.
  3. Earn an additional entry for ever new person you refer to (new referrals must enter the contest and mention you in their answer so I know to give you the bonus entry!)
  4. You must enter by 11:59 pm EST on Sept 29th to be eligible. One grand prize winner and two runner ups will be chosen.

And, yes: the contest is open internationally!

I’ll share photos of the prize pack once the final items arrive. I can’t wait to read your guesses!

The Wind and the Horizon: Epilogue

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It took longer for complete darkness to fall at this latitude, but the Emandi didn’t mind. A few extra hours meant very little to a creature who had already seen many millenia pass.

The moon was dark and the stars glittered overhead like ocean spray frozen in time. In the distance a hazy green glow reached faintly across the sky. It was a perfect night to watch the aurora, and the show was just getting started.

The Emandi had made their way high into the upper alpine, where the air was thin and the lights would feel close enough to touch. They coiled their sleek feline-esque body into an orb atop a weather-worn boulder and blinked slowly skyward with their pale, icy eyes. The aurora grew, colors of purple and red joining the streaking green and dancing across the endless expanse of sky to a muted song. The intensity of the colors reflected on the Emandi’s short silver fur, making the creature smile.

Being one of the oldest creatures in existence – an original child of the love between the land and the sun – the Emandi had borne witness to all of the earth’s wonders. They appreciated every single one of them, but had a special place in their heart for the aurora. For hours the Emandi sat in the frigid mountain air, the plush gossamer mane that floated atop their shoulders and down their chest provided a comfortable shield against the elements. It was a peaceful place to be for anyone capable of surviving in such unforgiving terrain.

A flash cut across the sky, bright enough to briefly outshine the aurora and catch the Emandi’s attention. Their eyes followed the light as it careened downward into the dark forest at the base of the mountain, close to where the Emandi made their home.

“How curious,” they purred and set off to investigate.

The Emandi took their time coming down the mountain. They dawdled through the forest, pausing to lap from a glacial stream and watch nocturnal creatures scurry hither and fro as the underbrush grew denser in the lower elevation. A brilliant white light filtered through the trees, growing brighter as the Emandi closed in.

At last, the creature stepped into a small clearing, lit as though it were midday. Standing at its center was a tall, glowing figure draped in golden robes with a sour look puckering their otherwise beautiful face.

A Star.

“Why, Sita,” the Emandi hummed pleasantly, easing back onto a pair of powerful hind legs. They rolled their shoulders back and drew themself into a human-like posture. “What a surprise.”

“I do wish you wouldn’t call me that,” the Star replied with a scowl. Owing to their musical language, Stars had names that were impossible for any earthly creature to pronounce – save for perhaps the birds. That the Emandi had decided to name them as they saw fit remained a sore point for many of them.

“Give me a name I can pronounce and I will cease at once. Now, to what do I owe the pleasure of your visit?”

The Star regarded the Emandi critically before answering.

“I’m looking for the one you earth creatures call Welkin.”

“Well, that’s peculiar. Is it not unusual for your kind to lose track of one of your own?”

“Not when they’re in exile,” Sita admitted darkly.

The only sign that this news surprised the Emandi was a sharp flick of their thick tail. “Exile, you say?”

The Star didn’t respond.

Making a thoughtful noise, the Emandi settled back on their haunches. “If Welkin is in exile, I can’t imagine it matters where they are, so long as they’re not up there.” They gestured skyward with an articulated finger from one of their forepaws.

“In this case it does,” Sita replied. “Welkin’s exile comes with certain… terms. We are concerned they may be breaking them.”

“Fascinating.” The Emandi’s tail flicked again. “This punishment sounds poorly thought out to me. Rushed it, did we?”

Sita glowered. “Have you seen them or not?”

“I haven’t seen Welkin in, oh, three years? Perhaps four. Is that helpful?”

“You’ve had no contact more recent than that?” the Star asked, to which the Emandi shook their sizeable head. “Would you even tell me if you had?”

“I have no vested interested in being dishonest with you, Sita.”

With their lovely lips pressed into a tight line, Sita deliberated privately before giving a curt nod. “Very well. Should your paths cross, we would appreciate it if you didn’t mention this conversation.”

Flick, flick went the Emandi’s tail.

“I’ll take your request into consideration.”

By the sneer on their face, it was clear that Sita wasn’t happy with that response, but there wasn’t much to be done about it. The Star’s light intensified to a blinding brightness, and the Emandi closed their eyes until it dissipated with a fading whistle.

The forest was filled with darkness once more. Glancing up between the shadowy trees, the Emandi could see a patch of sky; in it the aurora continued to dance.

“Oh, Welkin. Dear friend,” the Emandi murmured to themself.

“What kind of trouble have you gotten yourself into this time?”

— End of Book 2 —

The Wind and the Horizon: Chapter Fifty Nine

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In May’s dream, the world was a black, inky void.

At first she thought she was the only person in existence, wandering silently through nothingness; lost and alone.

And then she tripped.

She fell face-forward, sprawling without injury onto the dark. When she hoisted herself up onto her elbows, she glanced back at what she tripped over and let out a choked wail.

Floating in the emptiness, eyes closed and covered in blood, was Em. Her face was mottled with the same bruises and gashes that May had suffered at the hands of Melanie, and a red, seeping stain blossomed across her shirt from the center of her chest.

May scrambled to Em’s side in a panic.

“They found you,” she sobbed, her trembling hands searching Em’s neck for a pulse. “No, no, no, they got to you too.”

Fat hot tears fell from May’s eyes, splashing down onto Em’s icy skin and diluting the smears of fresh blood like watercolor paint.

“Wake up, Em,” she sobbed, holding her face between her palms. “Please, open your eyes.”

She shook Em’s shoulders with a firm grasp, her frantic pleas echoing through the dark and barren world that surrounded them. Something in May’s mind convinced her that she was too late, and she collapsed over Em’s body in a hysterical heap.

A soft touch on the top of her head startled her. May sat up with a gasp and found Em, now inexplicably void of injury, smiling down at her.

“I knew you could do it,” the Star whispered, looking at her with proud and loving diamond eyes.

May shouted with joy, flinging her arms around Em and holding her tight. She looked at her again, breathless with relief. Em pulled May up until they were face to face and pressed a chaste kiss to her lips. It was a gesture that filled May with happiness and longing, but for some reason her body seemed incapable of reciprocating.

Em tried again with another gentle kiss and, again, May’s body was sluggish to respond. It was confusing and frustrating in the way dreams are when things don’t work the way they’re supposed to. Em pressed harder. Slowly, with her mind growing fuzzy around the edges, May felt her body begin to respond.

Em’s kiss tasted like wine.

“Oh, May,” dream Em whispered in a voice that jostled May’s mind.

It wasn’t Em’s voice.

“May…”

It was Mila’s.

May’s eyes shot open to find herself surrounded by a different kind of darkness. A warm body writhed against her own beneath the covers, another kiss smothering her lips. Her sleep-addled brain tripped over itself at the sensation of a hand sliding up her shirt.

“I’ve missed you so much,” Mila’s voice murmured, her lips moving against May’s cheek.

“Mila,” May gasped. “Stop it. What are you doing?” She squirmed, trying to hoist Mila off and wriggle free, but her legs were tangled in the quilt and a sharp stinging from the scar on her chest nearly took her breath away.

“Oh, come on,” Mila crooned, shifting so that she straddled May’s hips and intertwining their fingers like tight laces. “You can’t tell me you don’t still think about us.”

“Get off of me!”

Mila attempted to kiss her again, getting only May’s cheek as she turned her face away.

“We’re both alone! This is our chance.”

May was now completely awake, panic pulsing through her. Her mind screamed like a siren, her body reacting to being pinned yet again. But this time she was stronger – not to mention sober – and she had the upper hand. Bucking her hips, May ignored the searing pain in her chest and twisted. With Mila’s center of gravity thrown, all it took was a shove to send her sprawling onto the other side of the small pull-out mattress. Hissing through the pain, May scrambled to her feet and gently massaged her scar.

“Wait,” Mila cried, reaching out for her. “Please, wait.”

“Mila, that’s enough,” May shouted. “You need to stop.”

As May fumbled to get away from the bed – the living room was so cramped with the couch mattress pulled out – Mila began to cry.

“I’m so sorry,” she howled. “I just thought-”

“No,” May snapped, cutting her excuse off at the bud. “We’re over, Mila. We had a chance and you threw it away a long time ago. End of story.”

“I was scared.”

May scoffed. “No, you were selfish. Clearly you still are because you’re married. And even if you weren’t, I’m in love with someone else – someone who actually loves me back.”

She stood at the foot of the pull-out and watched Mila sob. Even in tears Mila was beautiful, her soft cheeks flushed and dark, seductive eyes glistening. But now when May looked at her all she saw was a spoiled and pitiful creature.

“I don’t love him,” Mila moaned, punctuating her confession with a sad hiccup. As if she thought her words would make any sort of difference to May, she reached out a trembling hand. “I was alone and scared and I didn’t know what else to do.”

A part of May wanted to be surprised by Mila’s admission and even her audacity to use it to try and lure her back in. But May was no longer blinded by the charms of first love. With a shake of her head she turned and marched toward the door.

“Maybe, please.”

“I’m sorry you’re unhappy, Mila. But that’s not my problem. Not anymore.” May stooped and hauled her pack onto her shoulder with a wince. “It’s time for you to learn how to clean up your own damn messes.” She yanked the door open, a cool blast of night air washing over her like a refreshing tide.

Sparing one last glance back, May narrowed her eyes. “And stop calling me Maybe – you don’t get to do that anymore.”

*

It was so early – too early to be at the shipyards already – but May had nowhere else to go. Bundled tightly beneath Em’s hoody, May slumped down at the edge of a dock and let her legs dangle over. She was exhausted and angry, so much so that she couldn’t bring herself to care about being out in the open anymore. The dull throbbing in her chest had ebbed, and thankfully a quick glance down the front of her shirt confirmed that she hadn’t reopened her wound. Huffing, May arranged her pack behind her, leaning back on it to watch the sunrise and listen to the ocean roll around her.

As the night sky faded into dreamy shades of violet and gold, the shrieking call of gulls interrupted the serenity of the morning. May tipped her head back and watched them circle and dive, some hopping cautiously up the dock behind her or watching her with unblinking curiosity from the lamp posts above.

Then, amid the flurry of white and grey feathers, a dark mass caught May’s attention. She sat up and twisted to get a better look at the creature as it flapped its massive black wings, landing only a dozen paces down the dock. It was a bird, but not a gull. Every inch of its huge body – it easily dwarfed the gulls – was sleek black. Thoughtful eyes peered back at May. From its large, curved beak it let out a raspy caw that sounded eerily out of place.

And it was. May knew this was no island bird. She had seen the species before, high in the mountainous terrain of Tenna. Dom had told her all about them when she first spotted a pair circling in the sky; she had been struck by their enormous size and freakishly knowing gaze.

“A raven,” she whispered, watching the displaced bird with the same sense of awe. “What are you doing all the way out here?”

The raven cawed again and released what looked to be a crumpled piece of paper from its taloned foot. With a few rapid pecks, it opened the paper and tilted its head left and then right, giving each eye a chance to inspect whatever was on it. Then the raven looked back at May.

Another caw. This time the raven snatched the paper up in its beak and fluttered over to where May sat with flabbergasted stillness. Up close, the bird was even bigger than she had imagined and she involuntarily shrunk away when it got close.

Unperturbed, the raven tossed the paper down and scooted it toward May with its beak. It watched her expectantly and, when she didn’t move, it cawed again, making her jump.

“Am I supposed to take that?”

Caw.

Carefully she reached out, but the raven was already distracted with pruning itself. The paper was grubby and of a thicker stock that she anticipated. Turning it to face the lamplight, May gasped, nearly dropping it when she saw her own face smiling back at her.

It was a photo Em had taken of her back when they were on the run. In it, May sat on a blanket, smiling over her shoulder at Em as they perched on a hilltop watching the sunrise. It had been one of the first photos they sent to Dom to let him and the rest of the search and rescue team know they were safe.

“How did you get this?” May marvelled, turning the photo over in her hands. That’s when she spotted the writing. It was a note, short and unquestionably written in Dom’s child-like scrawl.

M —

Something huge has happened.

Can’t say much in case Fargus is intercepted.

Come ASAP.

— D

May raised an eyebrow at the bird. “Are you Fargus?”

Her question elicited a caw and a couple quick dips of the raven’s head that uncannily mimicked a nod.

“Did Dom send you?”

Another caw and a nod. May remembered Dom telling her that ravens were freakishly smart and, as a forest spirit, it made sense that he’d be able to convince one to send a message on his behalf. She reread the note and considered it carefully. There was always a chance that it was a trap, but what if it wasn’t? After all, if there was a way to ensure a message was nearly impossible to trace, May figured sending it by raven was probably a good way to do it.

“How do I know I can trust you?” she asked, feeling a little foolish as she did so. Fargus replied with a full body shake, dark feathers fluffing momentarily before gently settling back into place.

“Are Dom and the others safe at least?”

Caw. Nod.

Would it be crazy of her to trust a bird?

Making a detour to Tenna threw off her plan – she had intended to head straight back to the Rookery in hopes that the Murder’s criminal ties could help her track down her birth parents. Her eyes traced the words ‘something huge has happened’ again and her heart picked up its pace. What could that mean?

Biting her lip, May gazed out across the ocean. Her eyes fixated on the horizon. Going to Tenna meant delaying the only thing she wanted – putting an end to the Loyals once and for all so that she and Em could finally be together again. But deep down May knew she wouldn’t be able to live with herself if she ignored Dom’s request and something happened to him or the others.

“Okay, Fargus,” she said, turning back to the patiently waiting raven. “Tell Dominic I’m on my way.”

With a few excited caws, Fargus took to the air and flew eastward in the direction of the mainland. May pulled herself to her feet and watched the bird’s dark silhouette disappear. Behind her a ship’s horn sounded.

Once more, May looked across the sea.

“I’m sorry,” she whispered, her fingers tracing the groove of her absent ring. She fantasized that wherever Em was, she was looking down at it and thinking of May in that same moment. “It might take a little longer to finish this than I originally planned.”

The sun broke the horizon, its first rays reaching across space and time to warm May’s face with a gentle caress.

“First, Dom, then the wishing star.”

She smiled, bright and wide.

“And then, us.”


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The Wind and the Horizon: Chapter Fifty Seven

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May stood frozen in shock as Mila hurried forward and wrapped her long arms around her.

“I can’t believe this,” Mila whispered, her voice high with genuine surprise. “I never thought I’d see you again.”

Neither did I, May thought. She had forgotten how to form words.

Mila stepped back, her hands still gripping May’s shoulders, and peered at her as if she needed to double-check that it was indeed her ex-lover standing before her.

“Oh my stars, May. What happened to your face?”

“I was in a car accident.” May mumbled, repeating the lie she told the ticketing agent and holding a hand over still-tender scar on her chest.

“Oh no, was it the Rocket?”

May’s heartbeat tripped over something so familiar coming out of the mouth of someone who had been a stranger for so long. It had been five years since Kane had blackmailed May into sleeping with him; an unspeakable surrender she had done to protect the girl she loved. Five years since Kane revealed their clandestine relationship to everyone they knew, regardless of how much of herself May relinquished. Five years since Mila had fled from Omea instead of facing the fall-out, leaving May, heartbroken, to suffer alone.

Somewhere in the back of her mind, in the places where May had tried to shove the memories from that time, she knew she was mad at Mila. No, she was furious. But in the here and now, she was hurt and scared. To be standing in front of a familiar face – one she had at one point in her life felt safe and at ease with – helped alleviate her anxiety enough to eclipse her anger.

“No,” May answered after a beat. “The Rocket is still with us.”

Mila laughed, light and polite. “That’s a relief. Kai would be devastated if something happened to that damn van. What are you doing up here?”

I could ask you the same thing. In the early years, when May was still nursing the ache of Mila’s abandonment, she imagined her ex on a different island in the Iewa archipelago. The idea that she might have still been on Hoku this whole time made May’s head spin.

“I’m actually headed to the mainland. I sail out tomorrow.”

“What?” Mila’s eyes stretched wide with disbelief. “Are you kidding me?”

“It’s a long story,” May said with a shake of her head.

A moment of awkward silence passed between them, Mila twisting her hands as she watched May shift on her feet and look anywhere but at her.

“Well, if you don’t leave until morning, would you like to grab dinner with me? It would be really nice to catch up – you could tell me this long story of yours.”

May chewed on the smooth corner of her lip, opposite the side still healing from one of Melanie’s blows.

“I don’t know. I kind of need to find a hotel for tonight. My sailing is super early.”

“You could stay at my place if you want,” Mila blurted, seemingly as much to her own surprise as May’s. “I live pretty close to the shipyards, so you wouldn’t have far to go in the morning.”

Bad idea, May’s mind screamed. Nope, nope, nope.

But as a loud-talking group of teenagers pushed past them, May felt her anxiety flare. How long had they been standing out here in the open? The idea that a mystery Loyal might have spotted her made her blood run cold; the idea of being alone right now, even more so.

Mila saw May’s hesitation. “I have a pull-out couch. We could make dinner there and catch up. I promise not to make it weird.”

Too late.

May sighed, shrinking under the curious gaze of a passing couple who gestured at May’s injured face and whispered to one another.

“Okay, sure.”

*

May had anticipated a cramped little apartment, not the cozy two-storey home Mila led them to.

“Home sweet home!” Mila sang as she unlocked the door and stood back to welcome May inside. “You can put your bag down anywhere. Can I get you something to drink?”

“Just water please,” May answered, dropping her pack by the door and following Mila into the kitchen like a skittish toddler.

They set to work on dinner, Mila insisting that May sit and relax and May outright refusing. As they filled their plates, Mila opened a bottle of wine, filled a glass for herself, and then raised an eyebrow at May.

“Are you sure I can’t tempt you?”

May’s mouth salivated but she shook her head resolutely. She had done such a good job all day and besides, she felt it was smarter to keep her wits about her.

They retired to a modest dining room with a wide picture window that faced a lush, well-tended yard on one side and a wall of framed pictures on the other. May faced the window so she could watch the pink-faced birds chase each other through the trees while she avoided Mila’s gaze. The conversation was strained, neither really willing to be the first to dive into deeper waters.

“So, the mainland, huh?” Mila ventured carefully.

“Yup.”

“That blows my mind. Your family must be freaking out.”

“It’s not my first time.” May scrapped what was left of her meal absentmindedly around her plate. She had been hungry, but her discomfort made it difficult to finish. “I’ve been living on the mainland for over a year now.”

Mila nearly choked on her sip of wine. “Maybe, are you kidding me? Where? Why?”

Rubbing her palms along her thighs, May forced a tight smile. She used to love the sound of her nickname coming out of Mila’s mouth. Now it just sounded wrong.  “Like I said, it’s a long story.”

“I’d love to hear it, if you’re willing to share.”

May turned to look at Mila for the first time since they’d sat down. She sat at the head of the table to May’s left, the fading light of the day cascading through the wide window framing her in an angelic haze. Something caught May’s eye, glinting on Mila’s left hand.

A sizeable diamond was perched on her ring finger. May twitched with surprise, unable to look away before Mila realize what she was fixating on.

Mila looked down at her hand and flushed.

“Oh,” was all she said.

Turning gingerly in her seat, May finally looked at the pictures covering the wall behind her. Almost every single one featured Mila’s beautiful, happy, smiling face with a handsome man at her side. He appeared to be a bit older – perhaps by about ten years – and based on the large print of the two in the middle of the wall with him in a fresh suit and Mila glowing in crisp white, he was likely her husband.

May looked back at Mila, her mind racing.

“You’re married?”

Mila pulled her hands off the table and hid them on her lap as if putting the ring out of sight would do anything. “I am. His name is Temu. He’s not here right now though – he travels to Topaia a lot for business. He – we – own a store in town so he goes over to source product. Isn’t that cool.”

Trembling, May got to her feet. “When?”

“About a year after I left.” Mila sounded only inches tall. Her lovely face was crestfallen with shame. “I had nothing when we met. He doted on me, gave me a fresh start. He’s good to me.”

“You’ve been here the whole time.”

It was meant to be a question but in truth, May didn’t need to ask. Of course Mila had been on Hoku the entire time, only a couple of hours away. And she had started a new life, with a man who spoiled her, while May had languished in a town that hated her; while May paid for the things she had done for her.

“May, I’m sorry.”

Now May was angry.

“Do you have any idea what they did to me? Did you ever stop to wonder what was going to happen when you ran away and left me there?” May’s voice raised steadily until she was shouting, her hands balled into tight fists at her sides. “I did everything you asked me to, Mila. I let him touch me and hurt me to keep you safe.”

“I know, I didn’t-“

“You turned on me like everyone else.” May was quaking with years of pent-up hurt and rage. “And then, when things got worse, you abandoned all of us. Did you think it was just going to stop? Do you have any idea what I went through while you were up here starting over with some guy? Did you even care?”

A sob escaped Mila’s throat, signalling a flood of tears. “May, I am so, so sorry. I was afraid and impulsive. I can’t even begin to imagine what I put you through.”

“You’re right,” May spat back. “You can’t.”

Mila rose and came to May with her hands out in surrender; desperate and pleading. “Not a single day has gone by where I haven’t thought about you and felt horrible about what I did. You have to believe me, please. Is there any way you can forgive me?”

May searched her with glistening eyes. She had learned so much about herself and love in the years since Mila’s betrayal. She had also learned a lot about forgiveness, and so she shook her head sadly.

“No,” she said quietly. “I don’t think I’m ready for that. Coming here was a mistake. I should go.”

She turned, making a beeline for the front door. Mila rushed after her and took May’s hand in hers.

“Please, Maybe, don’t go.” Mila begged through her tears. “Giving you a place to stay is the absolute least I can do.”

“I don’t owe you peace of mind, Mila.”

“I know, you don’t owe me anything.” Mila clasped both hands around May’s palm and softly pulled her closer. “You don’t have to forgive me, and you don’t have to stay if you really don’t want to. But it would be amazing if you could at least give me the chance to try to make things up to you. I want to help.”

May pressed her lips into a tight line, ignoring the ache from the still-healing split. As hurt as she was, grudges and cruelty didn’t come naturally to her. It was hard for her heart not to soften just slightly at the genuinely look of remorse on Mila’s face. The fact that it was getting steadily darker outside didn’t help.

“I’ll even sleep on the couch,” Mila said in a small, hopeful voice. “You can have the bedroom all to yourself so you can get plenty of rest before your trip. Please, just let me do this for you.”

Letting out a deep exhale, May relented.

“Fine.”


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The Wind and the Horizon: Chapter Fifty Six

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The sun was rising as the Rocket rumbled into a parking lot at the north shore shipyards. May carefully lifted her pack onto her shoulders, locked the van, and tucked the key up in the wheel well.

“Thank you,” she whispered to the old junker of a vehicle with a light pat on the hood. How many times had this decrepit van gotten her exactly where she needed to be? “Kai will be here for you tomorrow.”

In the ticketing office a tired man eyed May warily as he took her money for the fare.

“What happened to your face, kid?”

May fidgeted. As if on cue, a car honked outside, giving her a story.

“Car accident.”

The man whistled between his teeth. “Musta been a bad one.”

“Could have been worse, I guess,” May said without looking him in the eye.

With her boarding pass tucked safely away, May considered her options. She had 24 hours to kill until her sailing; too much, in her opinion. As easy as it would have been to wait with the Rocket, she didn’t want to risk it in case her family decided to ignore her note and came looking for her. Besides, the idea of being alone didn’t sit well with her. She had kept her mind busy for the past week and a half by obsessing over her plans but now that she was here, there was nothing to stop the fear from creeping in.

Her brain fixated on how truly alone she was, and the thought made her feel vulnerable. Casting anxious, furtive glances over her shoulders, May sought out a place to wile away the hours – a place with people, but also one where no one could come up on her unexpectedly. Jittery and suspicious of every face that passed her, May wondered how long it would take to feel safe again.

Maybe this was a bad idea, she thought. Melanie might still be following me. She could be anywhere.

As strangers filtered around her on the sidewalk, May shrank into herself. Everyone felt too close. Her breath quickened; she needed to find a safe place.

She walked until she spotted a restaurant up ahead. But the relief she felt was short lived: there was someone behind her. May didn’t dare risk looking back, but she could feel a body following too closely. Her heartbeat thudded so hard she felt it in her ears. Panic rose and she picked up her pace – faster and faster until she broke into a full sprint to the restaurant’s door.

From the threshold she chanced a glance back only to find a teenaged boy wearing an oversized pair of headphones, completely engrossed in whatever was happening on his phone; he hadn’t even noticed her take off.

“Get a grip, May,” she admonished herself under her breath.

“Table for one?”

May let out a yelp as she spun to face a startled waitress.

“Is everything okay?” the waitress asked, glancing over May’s shoulder as if she might find something lurking there.

“Yes, sorry. I wasn’t paying attention and didn’t notice you standing there. A table for one would be great. Somewhere in the back if possible.”

The waitress lead May to the back of the restaurant and gestured to a small table.

Too exposed, May fretted. Her fingers twitched, longing for rings to fidget with the way she always had when she found herself overcome with nervous energy.

“What about there?” May pointed to an empty horseshoe booth in the corner that was clearly meant for at least four people. The waitress scowled but her eyes lingered over the bruises on May’s face and she gave a resigned shrug.

“Sure, whatever.”

With a feeble mumble of thanks, May scooted to the furthest end of the booth and drew up her hood. From here she had a good view of the entire restaurant but knew she was tucked away enough to be relatively out of sight. She let out a slow, calming breath and pulled the laminated menu foreward.

Her eyes trailed over the food and drink offerings with disinterest. Though nothing appealed to her, May knew she had to order something if she didn’t want to piss off her already grumpy waitress. She flipped the menu to find a full page of wine, beer, and cocktail options and something inside her ached. The idea of drinking away her anxiety felt like the perfect antidote, and May was startled by how badly she wanted it. Thankfully it was far too early; the restaurant wouldn’t be serving alcohol for hours. When the waitress returned, May ordered a light breakfast and tea. She privately resolved to ignore the booze menu for the rest of the day.

The day passed at an excruciating pace. To fill the time, May pulled out the curling notepad she had been using to keep her thoughts and plans for her solo mission. Multiple pages were dedicated to the litany of questions that continued to come to her as she tried to imagine how she was going to find a missing wishing star that an entire army’s worth of Loyals hadn’t been able to locate for over two decades.

What do I do if the Murder can’t help me?

Where did the Loyals take Dawn and Oliver?

What does a wishing star even look like???

She kept lists of places she could look and other people she might be able to turn to for help.

Former criminals from the cirque (pretty sure Lenore did time for murder)

Sean and wife (former cops) – would they be allowed to help?

Lunch time rolled around and the waitress hovered around the booth, watching May with a mix of curiosity and bitterness. May ordered a sandwich and more tea, settling up her tab with a better than fair tip that seemed to brighten the waitress’ mood and bought May a couple more hours in her vinyl formica fortress.

Eventually a new waiter – or perhaps the manager – stepped up to the table.

“I’m sorry, miss. We’ve got a bigger party that needs a table and you haven’t ordered anything in a while. Would you mind if I moved you to the bar?”

May couldn’t blame him for wanting to move her, and she appreciated that he wasn’t simply kicking her out. But as she eyed the bar, the idea of sitting with her back to the room and in such tantalizing proximity to four icy draught taps made her shake her head. With a word of thanks, she gathered her things and slipped out of the booth. It felt as if every pair of eyes in the restaurant followed her as she wove toward the door, through the waiting party, and out into the blinding afternoon sunlight.

“Now what?” May murmured to herself. All around her obliviously happy or distracted people came and went without sparing her so much as a sideways glance. She checked the time – perhaps she’d be able to find a hotel that would let her check into a room early. Her mind conjured up an image of a neat and seemingly empty room. Would it be secure enough? She played with the idea of dragging the bedding into the bathroom and sleeping in the tub just for the sake of having an extra locking door between herself and the rest of the world.

She meandered through the streets so fixated on finding a place to stay that she only vaguely noticed the faces she saw along the way. An old couple toddling arm in arm and bickering about what to make for dinner, a gaggle of school-aged kids jostling one another as they made their way to the beach, a beauty with dark features whose eyes flicked to May’s as they passed each other.

A light of familiarity sparked in the back of May’s mind; a twinge of nostalgia tainted by heartbreak.

“May?” asked a voice from her past. “Is that you?”

Her body seized in place. There was no way the owner of that velvety voice could really be the person May’s mind jumped to… could it?

Slowly, May turned. The woman had stopped too. She stood stock still, staring back at May with disbelief.

It was her after all: a touch older but with the same entrancing black eyes May had once spent countless hours gazing into and dreaming of.

Her first love.

May could barely find her voice.

“Mila?

What are you doing here?”


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The Wind and the Horizon: Chapter Fifty Four

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The world around May and her mother seemed to freeze. Even her breath hitched in her throat. Only her heartbeat hammered onwards, pounding harder over her mother’s words.

“Are you saying you know something that could help me stop the Loyals?”

Tiio shifted where she sat on the edge of the tub, her face drawn tight with discomfort. “Perhaps. I’m not sure to be honest but it could be a good place to start.”

May’s body tingled with anticipation, like the time Em took her on a roller coaster; fear and excitement sizzling beneath her skin. She leaned in closer to her mother.

“Okay, tell me.”

Her mother sighed and twisted her hands in her lap. “Before you left, your father and I told you about your birth parents and that they were the reason our island was ravaged all those years ago.”

May nodded. She remembered that conversation vividly – after all, it had changed her world.

“The Loyals were probably looking for them because they’d used the wishing star to have me.”

“That’s…” Tiio paused, taking her daughter in with guilty eyes. “Part of the story, yes. But there’s more to it than that.”

May’s heart skipped. “You said they didn’t tell you anything. You said they were trying to keep you safe.”

“I know I did, honey.”

“You lied.”

“It seems we all do foolish things when we think it will keep the ones we love safe.” Tiio’s look was knowing. May sat back and let out a slow, calming exhale.

“So, what didn’t you tell me?” May asked.

Tiio held out her hands, palms up, in a gesture of peace. May took them gently and let her mother hold her as she spoke.

“Your birth parents’ names are Dawn and Oliver Gardener. They were criminals; career thieves.”

Shocked, May’s mouth fell open. Of all the things she had expected her mother to say, that hadn’t been one of them.

“According to your mother-”

“Stop,” May interrupted. It was Tiio’s turn to blink in surprise. “You’re my mother. I don’t know these people.”

“Alright then.” Tiio smiled softly. “According to Dawn, they were looking to get out of it. They wanted to settle down, start a family. They wanted an honest life. It was Oliver’s idea to go after one last prize – something he hoped would bring them enough money to get out of stealing for good. So they decided to make their last hit count, and they went after something that had apparently been causing quite a stir. Neither of them realized what they had until after they had stolen it.”

May’s head spun.

“Oh no,” she whispered faintly. “No, no, no.”

Tiio answered with a grim nod. “I’m afraid so.”

“They stole the wishing star.”

“Like I said, they didn’t realize what it was until after they had it,” Tiio reasoned. “All they knew was it was a highly sought after artifact. It was only in the frenzy the theft caused that they discovered ‘the wishing star’ wasn’t just some fancy name – it was an actual star, and the reason everyone wanted it was because it could grant its holder anything their heart desired.”

The implications of this made May’s stomach churn with unease. In her mind, she was back on the beach on the night Em revealed she was part Star. The wishing star’s disappearance, Em had told her, was the catalyst that lead to the Loyals’ rise to arms. If what Tiio said was true, then May’s birth parents were responsible for lighting the match that started the blaze she now found herself up against.

“Did they tell you what they did with it?” she asked, her voice high with desperation.

“At first they had to lay low while they waited for the attention to die down. Oliver wanted to use the star to wish for wealth so they could start their new life right away. But soon enough they started to see what the Loyals were willing to do to anyone who had misused the star’s magic, and they decided they’d be better off getting rid of it.”

Tiio gave May’s hands a squeeze. “That’s when they discovered Dawn wasn’t able to have a child.”

“No,” May groaned, dropping her head. She knew what happened next and she hated it; the fact that her existence was so tighten woven into such a terrible story made her nauseous.

“Come now,” Tiio crooned as she softly traced her fingers through the hair on the unmarred side of May’s head. “It’s not all bad news. After all, we wouldn’t have you if they hadn’t used that star.”

“I know, but…” May couldn’t bring herself to continue her thought.

“Needless to say, when Dawn became pregnant with you, the stakes were higher than they’d ever been. Oliver had a much harder time selling the wishing star once the Loyals started their rampage. So they went into hiding.”

“Which is how they wound up here.”

“Exactly.”

“How do you know all this?” May asked. “Given the circumstances, I’m surprised Dawn trusted anyone enough to tell them all this.”

Tiio tipped her head, her eyes growing unfocused as she reviewed her memories. “She didn’t at first. Neither of them did. They kept to themselves when they first came to the island. But Dawn was pregnant and wanted a midwife. That’s how we met. She was such a charming woman, so funny and bright. We became friends straight away. Oliver even started helping your father at work, so soon we were spending all our time together.” She smiled at May, her eyes shining ever so slightly. “You look just like her.”

This was the first time May’s mother had ever said anything like that to her. Even before she had given up on asking about them, Tiio had never once given any information on May’s birth parents. To hear now that she had grown into Dawn’s likeness made May curious about her for the first time in ages.

“You were nearly due when the Loyals came to Hoku,” Tiio said, her voice a touch sadder now. “Our best guess is that Oliver’s attempts to sell the wishing star had put them both on their radar. Those monsters laid siege, tearing this island apart looking for them. Your father and I felt so betrayed when Dawn and Oliver confessed what they had done. But they were our friends, and Dawn was due any day. So we helped them hide.”

A single tear slipped from Tiio’s eye. May reached out to wipe it away.

“Then what happened?”

“The Loyals were relentless and the people of Omea were terrified. We knew it was only a matter of time before either we were discovered or someone turned us in, so Dawn and Oliver begged for just enough time to get you to safety, then they promised to turn themselves in. Your father and I agreed to take you in, Omea agreed to wait, and once you were born, Dawn and Oliver kept their promise.”

May swallowed. “What happened to them?”

“I don’t know exactly,” Tiio admitted sheepishly. “The Loyals left the island with them. I’ve never heard from either again.” She sighed and touched her fingertips to her lips. “That’s the real reason why the people of this place have always been so hard on you. It’s not because your parents are from the mainland – it’s because too many of them remember what they brought with them. You remind them of a frightening time.”

“What about the wishing star?” May was long past caring about why the people of Omea never really embraced her as one of their own. She had more important things on her mind. “Did they tell you what they did with it?”

“No. I’m not sure if they managed to find a buyer or if they hid it. All they told us was that they were done with it. And that’s the whole truth this time.”

For a few moments, neither spoke. Tiio watched May as she mulled over this new information.

“I know it’s not much,” Tiio said quietly, breaking the heavy silence. “Maybe it won’t actually help at all, but I thought you deserved to know.”

She was right – it wasn’t much to go on. But it was more than May could have hoped for. Knowing who stole the wishing star was a starting point she hadn’t had before. If she could find a way to dig into her birth parents’ criminal past, perhaps she could figure out what they had done with the wishing star.

And if she could find the wishing star, perhaps she could put an end to the Loyals’ crusade once and for all.

Rising gingerly to her feet, May placed a tender kiss on her mother’s forehead.

“Thank you, mama. I’m glad you told me.”

“Are you angry with me?” Tiio asked in a small voice.

May cocked her head curiously. “What for?”

“For not telling you sooner.” Tiio’s voice cracked, her lip trembling perilously as she took a moment to collect herself. “All this time we thought we were keeping you safe when we were just holding you back.”

Standing was exhausting, so May lowered herself back down beside her mother.

“It’s like you said,” she reasoned. “Sometimes we make poor choices when we’re trying to protect the people we care about.”

Her mind wandered to Em, and for the first time in a long time, the thought of her made May smile.

“The things we do for love.”


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The Wind and the Horizon: Chapter Fifty Three

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“What happened?”

“I don’t know. I came home and heard her screaming. She was alone like this when I found her.”

May felt herself lowered from the warmth of her brother’s safe arms and onto a thin, rigid mattress.

A gurney, she told herself. They were at the hospital.

“May?” came an unfamiliar voice through the fog of pain and blood loss. “Are you with us, May?”

“Yes,” she groaned as hands belonging to a nurse eased Kai’s wadded t-shirt from the gouge down her chest. She wasn’t normally one to get woozy at the sight of blood but her head spun anyway.

“We’re going to take care of you, okay?” the nurse told her in a calm voice. All May could do was nod weakly in reply.

She was wheeled away for stitches and x-rays. While a nurse carefully shaved the side of her head to clean up one of her wounds, May wondered if Melanie was in one of these hospital rooms, either receiving treatment of her own or waiting patiently for her chance to finish the job. Thankfully, May was rarely alone long enough to have given her the chance. Her bones were whole, there was no evidence of violation between her legs – she told them this but they gently insisted in the name of being thorough – and though her stitches were many, her body would heal. Physically, she was going to be fine in time; a doctor gave her medication for the pain and a prescription to fight infection.

“We’ll need to keep you overnight for observation in case of concussion but otherwise you’re going to be okay,” said her doctor, the name of whom she had already forgotten.

“May? Oh, my baby. Who did this to you?”

May removed the cooling gel packet from the side of her face – the one she’d been given to help with the swelling – to find her family rushing into the room, led by her mother. A pair of uniformed peace officers followed them into the room and, after a few quiet words exchanged with the retreating doctor, they shut the door with a soft click.

“Miss Alana,” said one of the officers; a woman whose face somehow managed to show compassion with neither a smile nor trace of pity. “I know you’ve been through a lot tonight but we need to ask you some questions.”

“Right now?” her father asked. “Can’t this part wait until morning? My daughter needs to rest.”

The officer opened her mouth to answer but May beat her to it.

“It’s okay, papa.” She sighed, struggling to straighten up against the pillows at her back but giving up when the pain turned out to be worse that she anticipated. “They’re just doing their job. Can my family stay though?”

“If that’s what you want.”

May told them almost everything – she had been attacked by a woman who had been waiting in the house when she got home; ruddy face, grey eyes, late 30s or early 40s – but held back the facts that she knew who the woman was and what exactly she wanted. She told them about the knife and how she used it to get free. Had Kai not come home when he did things probably would have ended differently.

When the officers finally left the Alana family alone, May closed her eyes against her mother’s tears and the low murmuring between her father and siblings. All she wanted to do was go to sleep and wake up to discover this had all been a terrible nightmare.

“Did you know her, Maybe?” Kai asked at last. “The woman.”

“Yes,” May grunted, her eyes still closed. “She’s a Loyal. She’s looking for Em.”

Ora and her father spoke at the same time.

“What does that mean?” her sister fretted as their father growled, “I knew that girl-“

“Don’t,” Tiio snapped, cutting her husband off with a sharp glare to match her order. “Now’s not the time.”

“Not the time? Our daughter was attacked by some monster just because she used to associate with a Star’s daughter and you’re telling me now’s not the time?”

“Stop,” May moaned. She gazed miserably up at the fluorescent lights as her family fell into tense silence.

“I hate this,” she muttered after a while. Her words were quiet but felt like a shout shattering the silence in the hospital room. She was scared – there was no point in pretending she wasn’t. But she was also frustrated by the knowledge that her family could very well be in danger because of her. What could she do to protect them? Leave? Send them into hiding?

Her heart clenched when she realized what was happening – her fear and worry for her family was not unlike Em’s had been for her. For the first time since they parted, May finally understood exactly where the Star had been coming from. Her decision to send May away suddenly didn’t feel quite so cruel.

She tried to purse her lips, but the split through them made her flinch. “I just wish there was a way to end this once and for all. It has to stop.”

At her bedside, her mother chewed on the inside of her cheek but said nothing.

Kai dragged a chair across the room and set it next to May on the opposite side of the bed from where their mother stood..

“What are you doing?” she asked as she watched him sit and make himself comfortable.

“I’m going to stay here tonight,” he said, as if she were strange for having asked. “I’m not going to have you spending the night alone with that bitch out there.”

“I don’t think you’re allowed to do that,” May replied with a hint of a smile. “But I appreciate the sentiment.” She really did – the idea of spending the night alone in the hospital filled her with fear. “I’m also sorry for storming off. I know you were just trying to help.”

“You can make it up to me by not kicking me out.”

In the end it wasn’t up to May whether or not Kai got to stay. A nurse politely escorted the entire family from May’s room when it was time for her to sleep, assuring them all that hospital security would take extra precautions to keep her safe. But Kai was back first thing the following morning, and as soon as she was given the all-clear from her doctors, he whisked her back to their parents’ home.

Her family moved around May like ghosts, their voices hushed and their touches fleeting. The pity in their eyes had been replaced by worry and had May been less consumed by the stinging, aching pain that seemed to plague every inch of her body, she would have felt guilty about it.

That evening she excused herself to change the dressings on her wounds. In the bathroom mirror she surveyed the damage Melanie had done for the first time. May’s face was mottled with dark bruises and an angry redness around the cuts on her lips and above her left temple. Gingerly she pushed back her hair to reveal the bald patch around her stitches and suppressed the urge to cry. Then, very slowly, she unzipped Em’s hoodie – since her revelation at the hospital she had found herself craving for the Star’s familiarity again – eased the straps of her top down her shoulders, and carefully lifted the gauze from her skin.

Though the doctor had done a fine job with the sutures, the wound was still the ugliest thing May had ever seen. Inflamed, puckered skin was pulled together beneath a neat column of dark stitches and the sight of it made May lightheaded. There was something about the injury that left her feeling disconnected from her own body; she couldn’t reconcile the idea that it was she who bore the evidence of such violence.

How could this happen? she thought bitterly, trying not to think of the mean scar she was likely to carry with her for the rest of her life.

A light knock came from the door.

“Sweetheart,” said her mother. “Can I give you a hand?”

As much as she wanted to say no, just thinking about the task ahead of her made May hurt. She swallowed her pride and tugged her top higher.

“Sure,” she replied.

Her mother bustled in, shutting the door quickly behind her.

“Alright, honey. You sit on the edge of the tub and let me have a look at you.”

She worked in silence, doing in minutes what would have probably taken May at least half an hour. May went between watching the careful concentration in her mother’s eyes and the deft and nimble way her fingers worked. Under her mother’s loving care, May felt the ever-present knot in her chest ease ever so slightly.

But as she finished taping the fresh gauze into place, something about Tiio’s expression changed. Concentration was replaced by strife, and May noticed.

“Mama?” she asked. “What is it?”

Tiio took a deep breath but didn’t meet her daughter’s eyes.

“I was thinking about what you said at the hospital yesterday.”

May frowned. “I can hardly remember anything I said yesterday.”

“About how you wish there was a way to put a stop to all this trouble,” Tiio reminded her, chewing anxiously on her bottom lip.

“Okay,” May said, eyeing her mother curiously. “What about it?”

Tioo glanced away, meeting her own gaze in the mirror and holding it for a moment while she thought. She was trying to decide if she should just keep her mouth shut.

“Mama.” May reached out and touched the tips of her fingers to Tiio’s knee. “What is it?”

“I think I might know something,” her mother answered. She looked back to her daughter. There was something distant in her eyes May couldn’t quite place. “Something that could help you.”


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The Wind and the Horizon: Chapter Fifty Two

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Adrenaline pumped through May’s veins as she marched back to the treehouse.

She was a cocktail of comeuppance: one part fury to three parts victory, and she liked it. Her only regret was that it had taken so long to stand up for herself in the first place.

But as she neared home, the fire inside her subsided, smoldering in a way that left her feeling tired and shaky; exhausted and exhilarated at the same time.

“I can’t believe I did that,” she whispered to herself, pressing a trembling hand to her heart. “I told Kane off in front of all those people!”

It was hard to say whether or not her bravado would come back to haunt her, but for now she let herself enjoy the feelings of pride and awe sloshing around inside her like the glass of water in her belly.

As she came up on the treehouse, she found it dark. The Rocket was gone and for the first time since storming off, May felt guilty.

“Kai must have gone looking for me,” she murmured, glancing back down the beach from where she had come.

For a moment she considered doubling back. Perhaps she could go to her parents’ place where he might be waiting and, if he wasn’t, they could at least help her find him. It wasn’t that he needed her, but she needed him; she was consumed with a desire to apologize so strong it nearly overwhelmed her.

But, no. It didn’t make sense to try hunting him down, especially on foot. Looking up at the treehouse, she thought maybe she could find some other way to make it up to him. Knowing Kai there was probably some mess she could clean up as a goodwill gesture.

She climbed the stairs and was relieved to find the door unlocked – along with leaving her money behind she had also failed to grab a key during her dramatic exit. The kitchen counter was cluttered with the mess of dinner, and an empty plate sat abandoned on the coffee table where Kai must have eaten. May imagined him chewing pensively as he stared out the window, wondering if she was going to come back on her own. But Kai’s heart was too big, and she was sure not knowing probably got the better of him. She wondered where he had been searching for her as she shut the door softly.

The sun was setting and the fading light cast long, deep shadows across the room. May scooped up Kai’s dinner plate and cutlery only to pause – the knife he had used brought back a memory so strong that it stole her breath.

It was the same nondescript kitchen knife May had brought to protect herself the night she met Em. She could remember the ridiculous way she had brandished it, her hands trembling, and then how foolish she had felt when she realized the odd and beautiful stanger was simply in need of help. May turned the knife over in her hand and smiled over the silly yet cherished moment it brought back – a moment that had changed everything.

She turned to bring the dishes up to the kitchen and gasped barely a millisecond before the shadow of something hard and fast struck her in the side of the head. A spark of light overtook her vision, blinding pain surging from the point of impact as the force of it knocked her back and set the dishes flying.

Someone was in the room with her, cloaked in the dark. May didn’t even have a chance to scream before her assailant emerged again, landing a hit like a battering ram straight into May’s stomach. Gasping for breath, May swung and collided with a body but having been taken off guard her hit lacked strength. She wasn’t fast enough – a pair of strong hands wrapped around her throat and squeezed.

It was only then, as she struggled against the fingers digging into her windpipe with clawing hands, that May saw her attacker.

Her heart stopped.

It was Melanie.

“You and I need to have a little talk,” the Loyal agent hissed, giving May a violent shake. In response, May kicked with as much force as she could manage, again and again until she connected with Melanie’s knee.

The Loyal cursed and flung May to the floor. May wasted no time in attempting to scramble away, but Melanie was already upon her. She was bigger than May, and unquestionably stronger, so when she straddled May’s middle and pinned her arms at the elbows with her knees, there was little May could do but squirm.

And scream. She screamed for help, for Kai, for anyone, but Melanie silenced her with a hand pressed tightly against her mouth.

“None of that,” Melanie said as May thrashed.

But May wasn’t ready to give up. She gnashed her teeth, catching one of Melanie’s fingers between them and biting down – hard. Melanie cried out and tried wrenching her hand away but May held fast, the taste of blood coating her tongue.

With her free hand, Melanie hammered at May’s temple until the pain overwhelmed May into letting go.

“Help!” May choked through the throbbing in her head and the tears that blurred her vision. Her heart thundered so hard she felt it might burst.

Melanie took hold of May’s face, forcing her to look at her.

“You’re making this much harder than it needs to be,” she growled. “This can all be over if you just tell me what I want to know.”

May sobbed, hysterical with fear and overwhelmed by pain unlike anything she had ever experienced.

“Are you listening to me?” Melanie demanded.

Trembling, May nodded.

“Good. Now, tell me where she is.”

A fresh wave of terror coursed through May: Melanie was looking for Em. This was everything they had been hoping to avoid; May was in danger but this time Em wasn’t there. May swallowed and tried to focus.

This may have been what they were trying to avoid, but they had planned for it too. After all, this was the entire reason they had feigned such a dramatic breakup in the first place.

“Who?” May asked, her voice cracking.

“Don’t fucking play stupid with me, girl,” Melanie spat, tightening her grip on May’s jaw. “You know exactly who I’m talking about. Where is the Starborn?”

“I don’t know,” May answered with a sob. At least she wasn’t lying.

Melanie didn’t hesitate, bringing her free hand down and laying a sharp slap across May’s face.

“Not the right answer.”

“I’m telling you, I don’t know.”

Another slap, harder than the last.

“Please,” May wailed. The room swam around her. Warm blood oozed from a wound above her eye. “I really don’t know where she is.”

“Alright, let’s try this then.” Melanie sat back, her body pressing down and forcing the air from May’s lungs. She reach for the front of May’s dress – an overlong button-down that Em had loved – and ripped it open, exposing the smooth, sunkissed flesh of May’s chest. May cried, thrashing and squirming with renewed vigor, while Melanie searched around and found the discarded dinner plate. She brought it down hard against the floor right next to May’s head, shattering it while May screamed.

“I don’t think you understand how serious this situation is,” Melanie said, holding up a particularly jagged ceramic piece of the broken plate so May could see its sharp edges. “But I need you to cooperate.”

“Please,” May begged. “Please don’t do this.”

While May sobbed desperately, Melanie placed a broken tip of the place piece against her chest, right at the spot where her sternum ended. She pressed in, breaking the skin. May shrieked.

“You have until I reach that skinny little neck of yours to tell me what I need to know,” Melanie said, digging the piece in a little deeper as May wailed in pain and white hot fear. “If I make it that far, you clearly won’t be any use to me. It’ll barely take me a second to finish the job. Do you understand?”

Blind terror was all May understood. Her breaths were rapid and shallow, and she couldn’t stop the blubbering mess of tears that streamed down her bruised and swelling face.

I’m going to die, she thought turning her head so she wouldn’t have to watch as Melanie began dragging the ceramic piece slowly, mercilessly up her chest. The jagged edge was like a scalpel, slicing her open with ease. All May could do was scream and sob.

But it was from that vantage point May caught a metallic shine, glinting in the fading red light of sunset. The kitchen knife laid by Melanie’s foot, and it was the only chance May was going to get.

“Where is she, May?” Melanie asked again, moving the piece at an agonizing pace, dragging out the torture.

May gritted her teeth and squirmed, stretching her fingertips toward the knife. “Please, I don’t-“

The ceramic sunk deeper. May cried out.

“Come on May.” Melanie’s voice was freakishly steady. This was clearly not the first time she had used force to get what she wanted. “Don’t be a hero.”

Almost. May clamped the very tip of the blade between the ends of two fingers. Gingerly she curled those fingers toward her palm until she could wrap the rest of them around the knife. Her hand trembled and she fumbled to grip the handle, the razor sharp edge of the blade sliding across the skin of her fingers. She ignored the sharp sting of the fresh, bleeding cuts. I just need a bit more time.

“She left me,” May blurted. It was the first time she admitted these words – up until now she had simply danced around Em’s absence when anyone asked. Saying it hurt almost as much as the gaping gash up her chest. Melanie paused, barely an inch from May’s collarbone.

“Oh?” Was all Melanie said in reply.

“She told me I was getting in her way,” May continued, weeping. “That she’d had her fun but that she could never be with some ordinary human. She told me… she said I wasn’t special like she is. She left me to go with WIND.”

“Hmm,” Melanie looked May over, considering what she was hearing. “And where exactly were they going?”

May’s hand, slippery with blood, gripped tightly – painfully – around the knife’s handle.

She would only have one shot at this. She had to get it right.

“I’m sorry,” May whispered. “She didn’t tell me anything. We got in a fight and she said all these horrible things.” A sob interrupted her. Even if they had just been for show, there was a very good chance those horrible words would be the last ones Em and May ever said to each other. “And then she left me stranded on the side of the road.”

Another sob.

“She broke my fucking heart.”

It was impossible to read Melanie, her face impassive as she looked down at May. She cocked her head for a moment, and then leaned down to May’s ear. Her weight shifted forward ever so slightly.

“Here’s the thing,” she whispered. “I don’t believe you.”

Before she had finished speaking, May struck, digging the blade deep into Melanie’s calve. The Loyal yelped, jerking in a way that gave May enough room to stab at her again and then again, blindly sinking the sharp steel into whatever she could reach. May twisted, trying to find a decent target.

Melanie trust the piece of broken plate into May’s chest, catching it on her clavicle, just as May stabbed again too. The knife blade plunged into the thin flesh above Melanie’s ankle. May only needed to saw it forward once before she felt a snap.

Not even Melanie could grit through the agony of a severed achilles tendon. Shrieking like an animal, the Loyal bucked backwards. May took advantage of the moment, adrenaline giving her just enough strength to knock Melanie from atop her.

Yellow light washed through the now dark room from outside. May heard an engine cut as Melanie tried to struggle to her feet and failed, pitching sideways on her ruined foot.

“Kai!” May screamed as loudly as her raw throat would allow. She scrambled to drag herself away from Melanie, her limbs quaking with the effort. The world was growing dark around the edges. “Kai, help me, please!”

“Fuck,” Melanie hissed, stumbling again. She threw herself at the deck door and shoved it open.

“May?” Kai shouted with alarm. “May, I’m coming!”

Footsteps thundered up the stairs.

May’s vision swam in and out of blackness.

The last thing she saw was Melanie stagger out onto the deck and disappear into the night.

And then,

nothing.


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The Wind and the Horizon: Chapter Fifty One

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[ CW: Strong language, alcoholism and sexual abuse mentions ]


May’s original plan had been to head to the bar and spitefully drink herself into oblivion.

Fuck Kai. Fuck him and his humiliating assumptions. She was an adult – she could handle her grief however she damn well wanted.

She made it to the bar just fine, but it wasn’t until she was seated at a small table on the oceanfront patio that she realized she had stormed off without any money.

Her stomach grumbled as if to punctuate her poorly considered temper tantrum.

“Great,” she grumbled, dropping her forehead into the cradle of her hands.

After a minute or two she heard the chair across from her scrape back.

“Hey, sister,” said Lenaia’s voice in the soft, pitying tone May was growing tired of hearing from everyone. “How’re you holding up?”

Lenaia usually didn’t cross the bar, but when she spotted May blow in like a typhoon, rage etched across her features, she waved off the regular waitress and went to investigate for herself.

“Kai and I had a fight,” May answered without lifting her head. “I’m here to cool off.”

“Ah,” Lenaia acknowledged. “Do you wanna talk about it?”

“He thinks I have a drinking problem.”

“Well, that answers my next question. How does a glass of water sound?”

“That would be nice.”

The chair scraped again and Lenaia gave May’s shoulder a squeeze as she walked away.

May nursed that glass of water for a long time. The ice cubes melted as she took her time, thinking long and hard about the messy state of her life between sips. The longer she sat, drawing patterns on the table with the condensation skimmed off the glass, the more foolish she felt.

She was rubbing her eyes and considering her options when she heard the chair across from her pull out a second time.

“Sorry for hogging the table,” she mumbled, dropping her hand from her eyes. “I appre-“

The words froze on May’s tongue.

It was not Lenaia who had sat down across from her.

It was Kane.

Leaning back leisurely in his seat, May saw the only things about him that had changed were his hair, which he now wore shaved close to his skull, and a scar above his eyebrow. He looked at her the same way he always had: a mix of predatory pleasure and disgust, somehow playing out at the same time. May’s stomach rolled, her extremities tingling with the basic urge to flee.

Countless restless nightmares filled with this man and the things he had done to her had haunted her since leaving this place. Beads of sweat formed on her brow and, as the weight of her aloneness started to drag her down, she mentally reached for some kind of lifeline. What she found was a memory of Connor in the dark, draping a blanket over her shoulders. His soft voice coaching her through the waking terror and confessing they two were very alike in an innately personal way. They were survivors.

May pretended she could feel that blanket now and Connor at her side – as invisible to her now as he had been that night. It made her feel less alone; it made her feel brave.

“Looks like the rumors are true after all,” Kane said with a lazy smile. “Mainland May came crawling back to the island, just like we knew she would.”

Something inside May flashed. She remembered this about him; the way he’d talk about her like she wasn’t sitting right in front of him. In her memories she could remember exactly how it used to make her feel; small and insignificant. Except this time – many months and what felt like a lifetime of experiences later – all it did was irritate her. This sensation, at first surprising, gifted her a sense of clarity. Now she saw it for exactly what it was: a power move designed to dominate, and she wasn’t interested. In much the same way that she didn’t care about winning back Omea’s favor, she also didn’t feel she owed this man anything.

“Hello to you too, Kane,” she drawled. She lifted her glass to take a sip but didn’t break eye contact with him once.

Kane narrowed his gaze. It was truly something how quickly he could switch from steady to vicious, but by now May had seen far worse.

“You have a lot of nerve coming back here,” he told her, his voice low and dangerous.

A laugh, sharp and unexpected, burst up from somewhere deep inside her, surprising them both.

“I don’t give a shit,” she said, and she meant it.

May revelled in the brief flicker of confusion she saw in Kane’s eyes. She wasn’t the same girl he once blackmailed and abused, and he knew it.

“Excuse me, miss?” said a large man as he sidled up to the table. May recognized him as the bar’s bouncer. “Is this man bothering you?”

His eyes flipped to Kane and watched him with unease. Perhaps he knew Kane, maybe they were even friends, and having to do his job was making him uncomfortable. May looked past Kane’s head and saw Lenaia’s horrified face peering from the doorway that lead inside. She must have sicced the bouncer when she realized what was happening.

Taking a deep breath, May sized up Kane as she eased back in her seat. “No, it’s alright.”

The surprise between the two men was palpable. But as a shark-like grin slid across Kane’s mouth, the bouncer took no time in hustling away without so much as a grunt in reply.

“Just a year abroad and you come back thinking you’re invincible, huh?” Kane sneered. He took May’s water glass and helped himself to two deep swallows, nearly draining it. Another power move. May made a point of rolling her eyes.

“You have no idea,” May said, locking his gaze with hers.

Kane considered her for a moment. “I’m sure you’ve heard the things people are saying about you, especially since you’ve been back.”

“I genuinely don’t care.”

“Really? I seem to recall you caring an awful lot. So much so that you were willing to do anything.” He smirked. “And I do mean anything.”

May’s heart hammered. She had to focus to keep the color from rising in her face and her vision from swimming. She took a beat to collect herself.

“How’s that limp treating you?” she asked, her voice cold.

Kane’s face twisted into a scowl. “You’re proud of that, huh?”

“I think karma finally caught up with you.”

“You believe in karma, do you?” He leaned as far forward as the table would allow. May had to steel herself not to flinch at his proximity. “I guess you’re getting yours too then. Everyone knows you came back alone.”

For a split second, May lost her composure. She barely felt it, but she knew it must have shown on her face because Kane smiled, satisfied.

“Your freak monster girlfriend dumped you so you had to come crawling back, tail between your legs.” Kane licked his lips, looking her over in the salacious the way he always used to. May felt like she had been doused in ice water. “It’s like you weren’t listening when I told you that the person you are is a mistake. No one can love you, not really.” He set his crossed forearms on the table and smirked at her. “That’s what you get for not letting me fix you.”

In an instant May was transported back years. She was intensely aware of her hair, the same length it had been when Kane would coil it around his fist and use it to press her face into the floor, immobilizing her for his pleasure. Face down, blind with tears, his voice was burned into her mind.

Stop crying,” he had said then, just like every time. “I’m doing you a favor. I’m going to fix you, May. You’re going to learn to like it.”

Back in the present, different emotions hit May in waves. First came the fear. Bile rising in her throat from a stomach filled with molten lead.

But then came the anger, and compared to the surge of fear, this one hit her like a tidal wave. May could feel herself shaking. She took a deep breath in through her nose, exhaling through her mouth, and then repeated the motion. She let her furious glare burn into Kane’s self-satisfied smirk.

“What is it that you want, Kane?” she asked in a voice as steady as she could muster.

Kane shrugged, acting a part.

“Listen, thanks to you and that bitch, the last year of my life has sucked. I’m man enough to admit that. But if you think you’re gonna come back here all high and mighty, you’re in for a rude wake up call. I’m just reminding you of your place. Don’t forget who you are.”

“You have no idea who I am,” May replied, leaning in close enough to take back her space. “You didn’t then and you certain don’t now. Do you think I’m weak just because Em’s not here?” She stood, deeply aware that everyone who had been craning to eavesdrop was now gaping at them without even trying to be subtle. “Kane, I have been places and seen things you can’t even begin to imagine. I’ve also done things and squared off against people who make you and your bullshit mind games look like school yard bullying.”

She rounded the table so quickly Kane didn’t even have time to react before she was at his side, bearing down on him with unwavering presence. Every patron on the patio held their breath.

“I’ve got more important things to worry about than what you or anyone else in this town thinks of me. In fact, I’m going to let you in on a little secret.” She leaned down, one hand on the back of his chair and the other gripping the edge of the table, trapping him in his seat.

“You are nothing to me. You are nothing more than a single grain of sand in this whole big world and I am not afraid of you anymore.”

She turned and took a few steps away from the table, then paused. Glancing over her shoulder, she could see that Kane was stunned.

“You have no power over me,” she told him. “Now, get the fuck out of my life.”


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